Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Self Doubt
I've wavered back and forth on this idea for a long time, but almost all of you have talked to me about it at some point. This is what I learned in school, and it's something I work hard at. I feel like an arrogant b*#%&(@*# that I made this other blog, because maybe Matt has something. Maybe skinny people just don't know. This is what I do know; being skinny isn't a genetic given right, and I'm smug about the fact that I am. I know I've been 10 pounds heavier than this, not pregnant, and have lost it. I've been 10 pounds lighter than this and lost my period. I'm currently 24% body fat, I'd like to be 19%, but we'll see. I don't believe in anything gimmicky, but through diet and exercise. Maybe I'm obsessed. I do posterior pelvic tilts to work my abs while I read. I'm fully crazy if you want to open up the can, which I think I just did. Until now I've offered subtle advise to not let out how bad I am. But it's all out now, and I'll be seriously sad if I'm the only one lose 10 pounds in an effort to help everyone else achieve 10 pounds. I will lose the last remaining curve on my body that hints toward the fact that I'm a girl and not a 12 y/o boy. And maybe everyone will despise me for it. I almost don't want anyone to respond to any posts on this blog, because my help in this extreme hasn't been asked for. But I have to think maybe I do have something to offer. My self-confidence is on a roller coaster.
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OK, I read this twice and I think I have it right. Andrea---seriously----you are NOT trying to lose 10 pounds are you??????
ReplyDeleteseriously you coach us through it. but you do just the opposite. I have lost 5 lbs and still have 15 to go so here I go. I am going to log on every day and tell you how long I exercised. If I don't log on you send me dirty hate mail. I really want to go off sugar for a month or two but for some reason I am super mentally weak. Lets all choose something we know is holding us back and go off just for the month of april.
ReplyDeleteI forgot to log my exercise. You can tell me if I should change it up.
ReplyDeleteSaturday ran for 35 min walked for 35 mins
sunday rest
Monday spin class 50 mins
Tuesday 30 mins eliptical SP??
wed boot camp class 55 mins (cardio, high intensity intervals, weights)
Way to go, Miss! I've lost 7 and am working on 5 more by the 20th. I'll do it. Andrea (Scott) is right, less food, more exercise. It works! Being hungry sucks. (Yes, I said, "sucks.")
ReplyDeleteAndrea, I 2nd the vote for you to GAIN 10 pounds!